Revelation 4

Next Wednesday, on June 14, my birthday, i'm gonna have my first bipolar group session.

What a landmark, and what better way to celebrate my 35th joyous year on this planet.

Tonight i finally realize why i turn to alcohol. It's the only time when my emotions are pure - happy or sad. No censorship, no guilt. True liberation.

It gets quite exhausting when you're not even allowed to feel.

JD told me that, when he was in therapy and was feeling better, he started feeling like it was OK to drink. Then there was inevitable disaster to follow.

When i'm in therapy, i feel better, and i think maybe i can see JD again and make the relationship work somehow.

Patterns are predictable after all. Good thing he's not in town.