Why Oh Why Can't I

Yesterday i saw a huge-assed rainbow. Probably the hugest i'd seen. Ever. It arched over what appeared as five miles. And the spectrum was broad.

It was so celestial, i felt exhilarated. I saw it as a sign, since i constantly seek signs. I felt that it said not to despair.

I hadn't been happy. Not in the conventional sense. I hadn't been happy in what felt like a long time.

And then 30 seconds later i realized: it is just light refracted through water vapor. It is entirely preposterous the visual has come to be associated with hopes and dreams.